I bit my lip and swallowed more tears in those 12 minutes than I have in a long time.
I kept eye contact with the surgeon in between glances at my wife.
He talked us through the whole surgery. Calmly. Slowly. In easy to understand if not unsettlingly truthful terms.
Our five-month old son Nolan is scheduled for open-heart surgery on Tuesday January 14th.
The surgery will repair a heart defect he was born with called AVSD or AVCD.
Either way it means lots of prayer and lots of emotion.
Stacey and I have known about Nolan’s heart issues since Stacey was 19 weeks into pregnancy.
Nolan’s name literally means “Noble Champion” and that’s what he is to us.
He’s a happy, good-natured little man that is thankfully and graciously unaware of what he’s about to go through.
When confronted with bad news concerning their kids every parent I know would willingly trade places with their child.
In a way Stacey and I are able to do that.
Nolan is too young to understand what’s about to happen. He doesn’t need to worry before going to see the surgeon. He won’t be nervous on the drive in to the hospital.
We gladly do that for him.
Parenting sets you up for the greatest amount of joy and pain you’ll ever experience in this life. Nolan has provided us with both already.
I cried tears of joy when he was born and I’ll likely cry tears of hope as we hand him back to the doctors and nurses at Children’s hospital next week.
Surgery is expected to last three and half to seven hours.
Those hours figure to be difficult ones, but we have no choice but to hope and believe for a great outcome for our son.
We know that God is literally right there with us as we wait.
“If your heart is broken, you’ll find God right there; if you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath.” (Psalm 34.18, The Message)
Please join us by praying and believing for a great outcome.
We know God loves Nolan dearly. We know that Jesus will be in the operating room holding our boy as they operate.
We believe in a God who is well able to heal our son.
This whole thing is a matter of heart for Nolan and for us.
We are trusting and depending on God to lead us through.